u know.. im not really sure y things are going like this but its okay with me. i accept it. although i thought he would take this differently. aren't people who love you suppose to care about u no matter what? well that's what i thought. apparently that's not the case. i didn't do it out of vengence, hate, or cause he wasn't good enough. i was hurting and his actions just pushed me off the cliff. so either way i went, to stay or go, i would get hurt...at first i thought that a little sadness was worht the happy times i spent with him. i was right. but it kept happening over and over again and i just had to say stop. but now i realize how stupid i was to handle things thinking i would crumble without him. im happier now. now when i go to sleep, im not sad cause he isn't there to show that he isn't my friend or only talked to me cause it was his responsibility.

im still sorry though.. i didn't wanna hurt him. but i had to. he was doing it to me and although i loved him i thought it was best. i was right.

but im happier now. i dunno y i just am. its like a weight was put off my shoulders. i no longer have to worry about the hurt he gave me.